I am beside myself with anxiety.
My mum has been here for nearly 2 weeks. As much as I love having her here, it has added a lot of stress. Work has been extremely busy and ridiculously unpleasant. If I am at work, I am worried about my mum being left alone all day doing nothing. If I take time off work to spend with my mum, I am wracked with guilt about not being at work. I can’t seem to balance everything. On top of that I have spent so much money since she arrived on trips, meals, shopping for gifts to send home etc. I love to spoil my mum and make memories, but now I have anxiety about money on top of everything else.
I don’t know what to do. I have a performance review at work tomorrow which I am dreading even though my boss has never indicated to me that he is not happy with my work. I always anticipate the worst. I have considered resigning this week from the stress even though I don’t want to leave my job. Last night I cried myself to sleep because I was so overwhelmed by everything.
I am fat and discontent. I keep eating and drinking trying to escape from the anxiety that will not ebb.