In case you were wondering, that image is a Botero ballerina. All you have to do is google ‘fat ballerina’ to see it come up. I also chose ‘chunk’ as my theme for this blog because it seemed fitting in a warped sort of way.
I am a 30 year old ballerina who has suffered from some form of ED or another since I was 10. I started out with anorexia, graduated to bulimia (including exercise bulimia), currently have orthorexia and any time in between have been diagnosed with EDNOS when I am not one thing or the other. I have weighed as much as 170 lbs (when I was diagnosed with hypothyroidism) and as few as 100 lbs on a 5’9″ frame. I have abused diet drugs and laxatives and pain killers (who hasn’t?). I am currently around
120lbs 138lbs 147lbs which I am not happy about (who would be?). During all my years of ED I never made it to being skeletal thin and at times have been rather heavy. I struggled with the idea that I was ‘sick’ but didn’t look like it. On this blog I will try to refrain from specifics regarding weight or too many triggering ideas in articles. I like the idea of us being a community fighting ED on a daily basis with acceptance of each other and without judgement. Some days it is encouraging to know that we are never alone in this struggle.
I am 3/4 vegetarian and 1/4 vegan and 100% nuts when it comes to food. I am technically ‘recovered’ although I use that word loosely because everyday is a work in progress and relapses are a recurring problem for me. This blog is a snippet of life as it is for those of us with this affliction. I am passionate about animals (that is why I don’t eat them), I like yoga (who doesn’t?) and matcha lattes and I have read almost every eating disorder memoir ever written. I hike, I camp, I pray, I dance, I write, I take photos, I walk and run and bike, I drink wine in copious amounts when I am not counting calories. I take long bubble baths. I am blessed with wonderful family and friends in my life. I am just an ordinary woman trying to live every day to its fullest with or without (hopefully!) ED.
You can also contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org.