How Not To Fall In Love

 

“You’ve lost weight! Are you in love?”

In love. Yes, I am in love. I am in love with a certainty that leads to starvation and then not just with the idea itself, but with the empty, gnawing feeling of it. I am in love with the notion of fading away because I am terrified to be present instead. I am in love with the knowledge that my demons will spare me the heart ache of being consumed by this relationship. Indeed, they will consume me until there is nothing left to love. Not for him. Not for me.

Advertisements
Tagged , , , , , , , , , , , , , ,

2 thoughts on “How Not To Fall In Love

  1. Reblogged this on Unravelling The Knots and commented:
    I just felt completely connected to this post, especially this:
    “I am in love with the notion of fading away because I am terrified to be present instead.”

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: