Oversleep. Another bulimia hang over. No energy to crawl out of bed, again.
Hit snooze, miss the gym, wake up and hate myself.
I am fat.
Coffee and thyroid medication.
Lunch: celery and hummus or cottage cheese and rice cakes or anything else that makes me want to never eat again.
Dinner: Binge, purge, repeat.
Stay up too late.
Go to sleep and tell myself that tomorrow I will get up and go to the gym. Tomorrow I will be “healthy”.
I close my eyes. Tomorrow never comes.